Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Sunsets at our fingertips
Good gosh, reading
Captivating by John and Stasi Eldredge, is like reading the answer booklet to your 'O' Level paper. All the little answers you thought you knew and you thought you were right, well, we all thought wrong. I wish I could express how
GOOD the book is, but it's that time of the day where all you can think of is food. Many episodes in my life (yeah, as if i'm so noble and valiant) have caused me to rethink what I did and didn't do. It scares me to think that I, as a 17 year old girl, have that much to offer, that I, complete.
It's not a feminist thing, because
I don't support feminist movements. But now I truly see that women have a pivotal role to play in society, and more importantly relationships, be it then, now, or to come. That I, as a girl, made in the very beautiful image of God, actually have a purpose here, a beautiful and perfect purpose, that completes. The book brings Romance to a whole new, and holy level. Romance, that mystery, that need, for every girl longs and pines to be romanced, at least once in her life. And that's actually true! Romance is actually real, it's not merely fictional. It's not a sweeping statement or a blind generalisation. It's true, that women
need to feel vulnerable, we need to be romanced, and that's wired in us. Because God designed us this way, perfectly designed us in His image, very fearfully, and indeed very wonderfully. To rid of this need would be simply disagreeing with God! He wants us to experience verses like "Therefore I am now going to allure her; I will lead her into the desert and speak tenderly to her" (Hos 2:14). And "You have stolen my heart, my sister, my bride" (Song 4:9). Our hearts are made desperate for this.
"What would it be like to experience for yourself that the truest thing about his heart toward yours is not disappointment or disapproval but deep, fiery, passionate love? This is, after all, what a woman was made for."
So don't go beating yourself up because you're "not good enough" and having yourself the incessant need and obsession to "improve" yourself, choosing a different mask to wear every day, because maybe if you were prettier, slimmer, more confident, more like the others, somebody, just somebody might notice you. No, God gave us a life to be set free.
And it's amazing, how you know we always see God as King, Almighty, Victor, Powerful and all the other words which describe His other masculine virtues? But in fact God loves us so tenderly and passionately, like a lover does, "How beautiful you are, my darling" (Song 1:15). And I quote,
"... that this wild God of mine, who knows my every thought and intention, who sees my every failure and sin, loves me. Not in a religious way, not in the way we usually translate when we hear, 'God loves us.' Which usually sounds like 'because he has to' or meaning 'he tolerates you.' No. He loves me as a Lover loves. Whoa."
Okay, so I cheated, I ate dinner already then I came back to continue blogging that's why the entry became so redundantly long. I know it sounds particularly feminist, but honestly it just makes me want to get married even quicker, to have a man sweep me off my feet and need me the same way I need him, to share something so beautiful and tender with him for the rest of my life, to be able to spend the rest of me on him, to be able to Love and be Loved in return. (yeah, Moulin Rouge.) After all, according to G. K Chesterton, "Romance is the deepest thing in life. It is deeper even than reality." Makes a fair bit of sense there, though it seems downright fundamentally flawed.
I feel like I just wasted my fingerwork. Maybe I ought to be blogging about something more exciting like tomorrow's
FIRST BADMINTON TRAINING (DEAR GOD, PLEASE HELP ME.)FINALE NIGHTTTTTTTT !!! :D :DBURNING A LOT OF CALORIES (PE + BADMINTON + LATE NIGHT)That's all! I've got some more reading (and homework) to do! Very very very anxious about Badminton tomorrow...
tried to hunch; 6:58 PM
