Thursday, January 10, 2008
I know you've seen this before.
I feel a mighty lot sadder after completing (not really in fact) my overdue maths homework. And it's unusually strange because I always feel happy after doing homework. Obviously I haven't been thinking solely about how to integrate the meaningless equations.
Over the past few months I've learned a lot about Forgiveness in many different ways. I'd always like to think I'm a very forgiving and patient person, slow to find fault and quick to forget. But again, over the past few months, I've learnt why it is important to forgive and to commit bitter feelings to God (Eph 4:31-32; Heb 12:15).
Simply because IT MATTERS. You matter. Our situation matters. I want to forgive because it matters, and I don't want to treat it like some noble gas, invisible and insignifant, and above all putting in SO much effort pretending that it doesn't matter. Sometimes it seems like it doesn't take you two bats of an eyelid to blink it away, nor does it take you a lift of a finger to flip the page. But it's alright. Because by God's grace, love and mercy, I am able to love and forgive like He did (Col 3:13-14). "Forgiveness is a
choice. It is not a feeling - don't try and feel forgiving. It is an act of the will." I'm acknowledging that it hurt, that it mattered, and despite that, I
choose to forgive. It was wrong. Very wrong. It mattered, hurt me deeply. And I release you. I give you to God.
Amen.
tried to hunch; 11:55 PM
