Friday, December 21, 2007
It's funny in the creepiest of ways
By some divine will of sorts, I stumbled across someone's blog today, and I was so mesmerised by her writing. What a sad girl, I never knew! The more I read, the more beautiful I think the words are; the vivid and painful recollection of a certain night a week ago where I surrendered into Jesus' arms and cried my whole broken heart out, started to haunt me again. It's funny how certain things just etch themselves into your memory, plainly for the sake of (I say again) slow, pleasurably torturous future recall. It's also funny because this girl doesn't have any inkling of an idea that someone somewhere, is reading her blog and admiring the way she writes. That I've been reading entry after entry, piecing the pieces of her life together, and the scariest thing is, it's not in her frame, but mine, like as if I'm fabricating her whole life. Frame, I learnt a lot about frames recently. Creeps me out to think that it just dawned on me that I'm such a busybody.
It's also funny (quotes Elizabeth) how you can think about a person all day when you don't even know that person well, and then wonder if that person's thinking about you too. Truly, the only thing we share, is the same sky.
And here's something interesting we both figured out last night whilst lying on the bed smelling of flour and cookie dough, talking about marriage and relationships and all that girly midnight banter. We figured that the notion of "The
ONE" is merely a
lie that the devil plants into our feeble minds. Often, "The ONE" is a mere justification of failed relationships, and I've seen it happen many times. Like how some people can wake up beside their husband on their first honeymoon night feeling a great deal of insecurity thinking "Good gosh, did I marry the right guy? Is he the One?". And with that continued mindset, snowballs into a series of arguments and discontent. And when they finally get a divorce, "Oh, he just wasn't the One for me." The notion of "The ONE" is a LIE, that's meant to trick you. We're all only perfect in our imperfections. Differences were meant to BE differences, so let them be. The very beauty of a marriage
is in such differences, that LOVE conquers, that LOVE awakens, because there is no such thing as Cloud 9, there's no more mist and fog, but EVEN THEN, LOVE STILL CONQUERS. The relationship blossoms into something so much more beautiful, through each passing moment of every day, through every year, and the couple see each other growing in all tenderness and beauty. Why?
GOD.Solution?
GOD.
Sometimes, it really isn't easy to submit to God's will. Takes everything out of you, but fills you with everything that you need.
tried to hunch; 11:31 PM
