Wednesday, July 18, 2007
You don't.
It's only the SECOND day of the week and I feel like I've just lived past another year. MYE results are a near travesty. But
expectations, expectations, I guess God is fair.
Life becomes useless when you let Fear drive you. It's a horrible feeling - I feel like I always have something to defend, something to prove, something to justify. My entire being, is almost as worthless as a fancy mannequin. It's that crumbling kind of feeling - like my insides are just dissolving, diluting into the whole of life's harrowing situations. Like a stranded boat, cradled in the ocean's heaving waters, trapped in the vacuity of it all. Just, trapped.
Hold on, dear life.
tried to hunch; 12:03 AM