Friday, December 28, 2007
Bringing the merry and cheer

Hello Everybody! :) Since everyone has their Christmas post, I also want to join the clique.

I don't know how to define Christmas for me this year. It's weird not having your friends and family around you, not being able to speak normally (Singlish) for a week - it's been SO tiring to keep up with the accent, not being able to get all excited with your friends (I forgot for what reason). But anyhoo, I realised, at the end of the day (why can't it be the beginning of the day?), Christmas never changes, no matter which part of the universe I'm in. Christmas is all about Jesus. Looking back, it's been a pretty rough year, it's been a very trying and weary year. It's a year which I came out of alive, and very much older. And if I could redo something, it'll definitely be 2007. But nonetheless, Christmas is a time to remember the gift Jesus gave, and simply put, it's LOVE. Christmas is all about the Love Jesus gave to mankind. The greatest gift of Salvation, the greatest gift of Truth, Beauty, Freedom and most importantly, Love. Regrets, hurts, pains and tears aside, Jesus Loves you. And the only reason He puts you through all this sucky stuff, is to mould you into the most beautiful person you can be for Him! This gift of an uncompromising Love is free (duh it's a gift right) and all it takes is a little faith for you to reach out and receive that gift, and I promise you, Life becomes more beautiful that way. :)

And yes, you all are dearly missed. Ha ha.

Sorry for the absence of photos, will post them when I get back. Yes and no to whether I'm excited about coming home. Yeah, you can figure that out by yourself. ;)

It's all about You Jesus! :D Mighty Merry CHRISTmas everyone! And thank You Jesus for loving me. :)



tried to hunch; 9:20 PM

Friday, December 21, 2007
It's funny in the creepiest of ways

By some divine will of sorts, I stumbled across someone's blog today, and I was so mesmerised by her writing. What a sad girl, I never knew! The more I read, the more beautiful I think the words are; the vivid and painful recollection of a certain night a week ago where I surrendered into Jesus' arms and cried my whole broken heart out, started to haunt me again. It's funny how certain things just etch themselves into your memory, plainly for the sake of (I say again) slow, pleasurably torturous future recall. It's also funny because this girl doesn't have any inkling of an idea that someone somewhere, is reading her blog and admiring the way she writes. That I've been reading entry after entry, piecing the pieces of her life together, and the scariest thing is, it's not in her frame, but mine, like as if I'm fabricating her whole life. Frame, I learnt a lot about frames recently. Creeps me out to think that it just dawned on me that I'm such a busybody.

It's also funny (quotes Elizabeth) how you can think about a person all day when you don't even know that person well, and then wonder if that person's thinking about you too. Truly, the only thing we share, is the same sky.

And here's something interesting we both figured out last night whilst lying on the bed smelling of flour and cookie dough, talking about marriage and relationships and all that girly midnight banter. We figured that the notion of "The ONE" is merely a lie that the devil plants into our feeble minds. Often, "The ONE" is a mere justification of failed relationships, and I've seen it happen many times. Like how some people can wake up beside their husband on their first honeymoon night feeling a great deal of insecurity thinking "Good gosh, did I marry the right guy? Is he the One?". And with that continued mindset, snowballs into a series of arguments and discontent. And when they finally get a divorce, "Oh, he just wasn't the One for me." The notion of "The ONE" is a LIE, that's meant to trick you. We're all only perfect in our imperfections. Differences were meant to BE differences, so let them be. The very beauty of a marriage is in such differences, that LOVE conquers, that LOVE awakens, because there is no such thing as Cloud 9, there's no more mist and fog, but EVEN THEN, LOVE STILL CONQUERS. The relationship blossoms into something so much more beautiful, through each passing moment of every day, through every year, and the couple see each other growing in all tenderness and beauty. Why? GOD.

Solution? GOD.

Sometimes, it really isn't easy to submit to God's will. Takes everything out of you, but fills you with everything that you need.


tried to hunch; 11:31 PM

None but You

I am terribly saddened by my loss. I miss the sound the metal detector gantries make when I walk through them. Life will never be the same again. :( Don't love me any less just because I don't have a bright smile anymore.

Cell retreat was a blast!! I loved every moment of it! Especially playing 21 with the most unluckiest of players - Isaac Hong. We laughing until our sides hurt! Not to mention the thousands of calories I consumed while staying awake all night. THANK GOD FOR CIA:T4T!!



tried to hunch; 9:12 PM

Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Andrew's photography is getting good.. (:



tried to hunch; 2:58 AM

Sunday, December 16, 2007
And the lines our love drew all start to smear

COMMUNITY SERVICE DAY!

HAPPY PAIRS + 2ND BLOOD DONATION + PINK BANDAGE WITH PURPLE HEARTS + RECEIVE A BALLOON FLOWER FROM JEREMY + A VERY CUTE BALLOON ELEPHANT + MICHELLE'S BIRTHDAY PARTY(BAKING + PEELING AND MASHING POTATOES + DISHWASHING) + TABOO + FEELING EXCITED ABOUT TOMORROW = A GOOD DAY GOODLY SPENT. :)


Thank God for happy days and thank God even for sad days! Because without sad days there would be no happy days! :D

My soul's turbulent oceans are very calm today, the sun is laughing and the waters are glimmering upon a perpetual crytal blue, and I'm too tired to come up with any beautiful metaphors now. Far from tired actually, I haven't frus my brother enough yet.

tried to hunch; 11:19 PM

Beautiful Disaster - Jon Mclaughlin

She loves her mama's lemonade
Hates the sound that goodbyes make
She prays one day she'll find someone to need her.
She swears that there's no difference
Between the lies and compliments
It's all the same if everybody leaves her.
And every magazine tells her she's not good enough
The pictures that she sees make her cry.

And she would change everything, everything just ask her.
Caught in the in between, a beautiful disaster
And she just needs someone to take her home.

She's giving boys what they want, tries to act so nonchalant
Afraid they'll see that she's lost her direction.
She never stays the same for long
Assuming that she'll get it wrong
Perfect only in her imperfection.
She's not a drama queen
She doesn't want to feel this way
Only seventeen but tired.

She would change everything for happy ever after.
Caught in the in between, a beautiful disaster
But she just needs someone to take her home.

Cause she's just the way she is
But no ones told her that's ok.

And she would change everything, everything just ask her.
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster.
And she would change everything for happy ever after.
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster.

But she just needs someone to take her home
And she just needs someone to take her home.

tried to hunch; 1:42 AM

Friday, December 14, 2007
In quietness and trust

Felt so lousy today I just slothed around at home all morning and early afternoon. As the stillness drove me to sleep, I woke up finding myself looking out of the window, staring into the heavy rain. So I sat up, thinking and convincing myself "I'm as sad as the sky.." and I never got over it. I thought maybe some fresh air and rain would do me good. So I took an umbrella and left. As I walked in the rain (NO, I AM NOT EMO) I had a nice chat with Jesus. And He told me to Hope in Him. So I recalled this song which chorus goes something like "My life is in You Lord, my strength is in You Lord, my hope is in You Lord, it's in You, it's in You." It was amazing because then Jesus gave me sunshine. The pouring rain ceased and the sun came out! It was glorious and it felt great to know that He is indeed a Living God who is always with you and hears your every cry and plea! Think Sunshine. Think hope, happiness, warmth, splendor. And I promise at that moment, it felt so, so good and comforting.

It was such a shitty Friday. Thank God for God. Though my world may break and crumble, His Word will not. I wish everyone a Happy Day and may you not run the race for nothing.

tried to hunch; 6:07 PM

Friday

When every passing day seems like eternity gone wrong, it shocks me to find myself alive this Friday. It's almost two in the afternoon, and I'm just wandering.. Remedy needed..

Be small enough to hear me now..

tried to hunch; 1:41 PM

For all those things we don't understand

" You have kept count of my tossings, put my tears in your bottle." - Psalms 56:8

Life can be very difficult, and no doubt the easier option would be to simply give up. Many times I crave for an escape, any escape. But because of Jesus in my life, I bear hope - not in life, but in Him, because He is the only certainty we have. Life lets you down, it drives you mad, it hurts you, it cuts you so deep at times you feel like just slowly bleeding to death, until you're more afraid to not die. "Treasures of darkness, riches stored in secret places." Even through darkness and night, God promises something so valuable and precious for us, and He promises to strengthen us every step of the way. What good reason do we have to give up?

Jesus loves me, and He loves YOU too, and that's all you'll ever need.

It's been a trying week, and it nearly seemed like my life was just so easily demolished right in front of my weary eyes. Walk away Denise, walk away.


tried to hunch; 12:18 AM

Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Where's Denise?

I FEEL LIKE DRIVING A CAR THROUGH MY HEAD AND CHEW ON MARBLE WHILE I WAIT IN SUCH LETHAL ANTICIPATION. ARGH. DON'T TOUCH ME.





tried to hunch; 12:04 AM

Saturday, December 08, 2007
In the day of the happy,

there were happy people roaming. And indeed they roamed, where the traffic smiled, the sun giggled and the moon beamed. Along the boulevard of dreams come true, there upon a trail of happy people, where gay and glee held hands and pranced alongside charm and cheer. Twas in the day of the happy.. :)


tried to hunch; 10:59 PM

Tuesday, December 04, 2007
Just because..

Today's one of the best days ever! YES I WATCHED MOULIN ROUGE. BEST MOVIE IN THE WORLD. So many things that I saw that I never saw before when I watched it lifetimes ago, when I was young, naive, and very clueless. It was so beautiful, the story was so beautiful and cleverly put together. The lyrics were perfect, every word spoke volumes and emoted such strong beliefs, in Beauty, Freedom, Truth, and most importantly, Love. It's been a very LOVEly week, there's Love in every thing I see! Like Christian would say, Love is like oxygen, Love is a many splendid thing, Love lifts us up where we belong!

And the greatest thing of all is just to Love, and be Loved in return.

I'm undergoing the Moulin Rouge phase, listening to the soundtrack repeatedly, all the medleys and songs, keep playing in my head, I can't believe how I've never saw such beauty captured in every word before.. Love..

ON A MORE EXCITING AND HEART-THUMPING NOTE, I'VE EXCAVATED THE GROUNDS OF ADIDAS.COM.SG/MARATHON2007 AND RECOVERED TWO OF THE THREE PHOTOS WE TOOK ON 2 DECEMBER. MIGHTY HAPPY AND PROUD!!! :D :D

Still searching for the last photo like a parent searching for their alien-abducted child. It's been a very very good day. Praise God because He is SO GOOD, ALL THE TIME! :) :)



tried to hunch; 11:31 PM

Monday, December 03, 2007
But the greatest of these is Love.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

- 1 Corinthians:4 -7

Inspired by the last movie I'd ever imagine myself watching: A Walk To Remember. I deserve to get a slap on my fat face for that. But no doubt, the Word is Truth. Without Love, we are nothing. Love delights and rejoices with the Truth. Truth. What can be more TRUE in this entire universe than Jesus Christ! Relationships should be built upon Jesus, because without Him, we are nothing. :)

10km run today was GREAT. But I can promise to the day I become anorexic, I felt like chewing my legs off during the first 5km. Stitches and blisters aside, my lungs felt too large for my body it felt like it was going to explode. But thankfully, with much motivation from Eli (PHOTOS WILL BE POSTED AS SOON AS SINGAPOREMARATHON UPLOADS THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) I managed to overcome that gigantic mountain and ran ran ran. Really enjoyed this year's run! Better than last year I think. Yay yay. Next year I'll be moving greater mountains: 21km. Spit shake already - no turning back! :D Excitement excitement!!!

I feel like watching another tragedy like Moulin Rouge now, but I need to rid of that lingering barbecue chicken smell all over my fat body. Moreover the VCD is in my parent's room and they're already sleeping. Grrr. I need to release girly emotions right now!!

tried to hunch; 12:01 AM

Sunday, December 02, 2007
Confession is suicide

THE PACT THE PACT THE PACT IT'S THE HAPPIEST DAY I GOT THE PACT BACK! DON'T TRY TO UNDERSTAND HOW HAPPY I FEEL BECAUSE YOU'LL NEVER GET THERE. HAHA. IT'S BEYOND HAPPINESS, IT'S THE HAPPIEST THING THAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME IN A LONG LONG TIME! IT'S LIKE GETTING A PART OF MY HEART BACK. NOW I'M NOT SO INCOMPLETE! HAHAH. ANOTHER PIECE TO MY PUZZLE!

Reading The Pact is like being in a little snow globe. The snow man is happy, he's in a little magical world of his own, it dazzles, it's perfect, it's content, it's bliss, it's heart and it's soul. Above all, the snow man is happy! I still can recall being in that snow globe for weeks when I first read it. Just spending my life as if I were in the story, as if I knew Chris and Emily like I knew myself, as if I was the one in pain, in love, in tragedy, in such intense emotion, as if I was the one who was afraid not to die. Snow globe snow globe, sometimes I wish I lived in a snow globe. LOVE LOVE LOVE - the greatest ethic, the greatest gift, the greatest piece, the greatest explanation.

I hate it how couples go and remember and mark on their calendars their first kiss and first date and all of that other token junk. It's not so much of the first, rather, it's the last that really leaves that mark on you, not on the stupid calendar.

Tomorrow is 10km day and it is 12.52am and I am eating shortbread. I remember same time last year I was talking to Dorothy over the phone until like 4am, just 2 hours before I had to wake up for the run. Such runs somehow always call for unpreparedness, it's not like I trained for this either, I'm only doing it for the jersey..

tried to hunch; 12:17 AM

speak UP; BE heard

Denise Cheong - "The Platypus is a beautiful and graceful creature."

Psalms 27:4 "One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek Him in His temple."

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